Life with the baby...

Our lives have totally changed the moment we brought the baby home. We never sleep on the same bed but instead used the one by the nursery just to stay close to the baby during the night. Our home is filled with cries and squirms now and then. Probably the most beautiful sound I have heard. And yes, woke you up in the middle of the night or every two hours, and making sure he is breathing while on his sleep. 

Although what this little creature can do right now is to eat, pee, poop, and sleep, I can't wait for the time he will look at my face and realize I'm his mommy. The unintentional smiles he bestowed at me while his eyes are closed had already made my heart jump with joy. I can't wait for the time when those smiles are meant to be.

The bonding that we share during the feeding time was beautiful. Knowing what your body can do for this creature and how much he needed you at this crucial time of his life. Even to this, it takes patience.

I never felt so protective toward something else until with this baby. I have worked with babies and toodlers, but when it comes to my own, it was different. The desire to offer him the best is intense. I want him to have the best life with me and even doing things my way, if only is possible then I would... but unfortunately, I am only a steward of this blessing. God has planned for him which may be different from my own. Although I want him to become something else, God may want him to be somebody else.

The best thing I can do, is to enjoy every moment with him. Months from now his clothes may never fit him anymore, he will be eating solid foods, or started to crawl around the house. It may be a while until he would finally appreciate the things that we do for him but until then, he will always be loved and taken cared of.

Perhaps the other great things we can do for him is to show him how to live in this world, and teach him the things that he needs to learn. Things that would equip him in facing this challenging world and would enable him to stand for himself when we can't be there anymore. When the time comes when he realize, that everything we do is for his own sake, I am sure by that time, every effort made will be rewarded!